chanta chantita

I love YOU LORD! :)

I want to say so many things.
Words with meaning. Sentences with wisdom.
But each time I try to start writing, I end up facing a blank wall.

I've no time to think about things with greater value.
No time to revel in the true and simple joys of life.
I've been caught up too much with the hustle and the bustle of everyday living.
Waking up. Working. Surviving.

And once in a while I catch myself drifting off, my mind wandering to other possibilities.

The CALL. It has always been ringing.
There was a time that I've heard it clearly.
As in freakishly clear.
But now it's almost just a distant sound.
Like the sound you hear after a loud rock concert.

I need to be in my Father's house. I have to be in my Father's house.
But then He said, "Go OUT into the WORLD rejoicing in the power of the HOLY SPIRIT!"

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The scriptures today, talks about being conquerors through Christ. About His GREAT love that makes us victors. I KNOW that is the TRUTH. (Though I've been feeling sorta down these past weeks - perhaps due to burn-out, and other concerns..)

Oh well.

Feelings Change. The TRUTH doesn't.
Will definitely stick with the TRUTH.

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"Even When"

This week, I prayed, one time
My phone, it rang, I put You on the other line
And now my thoughts they drift around
My knees remain unacquainted with the ground
Unless my faith is put to the test and I am forced to bow
Although I'm in this flesh it doesn't mean You shouldn't have the best
from me, from me

[Chorus:]
Even when my eyes are dry
even when my soul is tired
even when my hands are heavy, I will lift them up to You
It's not about how I feel, oh Lord I am here for You
I exist for you

I close my eyes but all I see
Is a background of black, bouncy squiggly lines
And this week's mistakes coming back to mind but
I will lift my voice and make a joyful sound
Forget about me, I only get me down
Although I cannot see it doesn't mean I shouldn't sing to You, to You

[Chorus]

You've given me Your life and have held mine together yet I find
Excuses to slouch in my pew
But when glory divine
Is sitting in my very presence, the least that I can do
Is give my all to You, give my all to You

[Chorus] 

Dear Chantal Rose,

Your mission in life isn’t to earn money. Your mission isn’t to enjoy life.
Your mission isn’t to have a good time. Your mission isn’t even to be
happy. All those goals are good. (Yes, like any father, I want my children
to be happy.) But they’re not the sacred purpose of why you were born.

Be you,
God

P.S. Chantal Rose, your sacred mission is to love.

This song expresses what I exactly feel right now.
Times played today on my ipod: 7 and counting... (repeat to infinity and beyond)





Can't Stop Now
by Keane


I noticed tonight that the world has been turning
While I've been stuck here dithering around
Though I know I said I'd wait around till you need me
But I have to go, I hate to let you down
But I can't stop now
I've got troubles of my own
Cause I'm short on time
I'm lonely
And I'm too tired to talk

I noticed tonight that the world has been turning
While I've been stuck here withering away
Though I know I said I wouldn't leave you behind
But I have to go, it breaks my heart to say

That I can't stop now
I've got troubles of my own
Cause I'm short on time
I'm lonely
And I'm too tired to talk

To no one back home
I've got troubles of my own
And I can't slow down
For no one in town
And I can't stop now

And I can't slow down
For no one in town
And I can't stop now
For no one

The motion keeps my heart running
The motion keeps my heart running
The motion keeps my heart running
The motion keeps my heart running 

Nurses - they are everywhere. Well, at least in the Philippines, that is. But anyhow, I've read somewhere that there are about 5 million nurses in the world (I'm not really sure if that's true, but if it is.. Isn't that a tad too few compared to the world's population?... Oh well.)